急求英文翻译,求大家帮忙,我要向爱人说的话请帮忙给翻译一下

急求英文翻译,求大家帮忙,我要向爱人说的话请帮忙给翻译一下
为什么当我们不在一起的时候,才能感觉到真的很想念对方,很在乎对方,需要对方,爱着对方.而在一起的时候,却只感觉很累,很受伤,很讨厌对方,很想离开对方.你知道吗,当和你在一起的时候,我有好多话要对你说,但却不敢说,有好多事要跟你一起去做,但又不能去做.很想拉着你的手一起走,但怕被你甩开；很想让你经常吻我,但知道你不会的；很想让你开心,但却总是使你生气,最后自己伤心.总觉得好像有什么东西把我们给隔开,我们离得很近,但心却很远.知道为什么在你睡觉的时候我要不睡而看着你睡吗?因为只有在你睡着的时候我才能感觉到,这个熟睡着的安静又可爱的男人才是我真正爱着的人,才是真实的,离我如此接近的.我要把这个瞬间永远留在脑海里,永远不要忘记我爱着的你真实的样子!虽然这样的机会很少,但我已经满足了,因为每次想起那个时刻,我就觉得真的很幸福,幸福的想流泪,想就这样幸福的过一辈子!总是让你为我累,对不起!本以为不会再爱了,更不会爱上你,你却给了我爱上你的机会和理由.谢谢你让我知道了什么才是真正的爱,谢谢你给了我幸福的感觉,谢谢你给了我这段刻骨铭心的美好的爱情!不要什么承诺,不再需要其他人,无论你是否需要我,我今生只等你!这样才对得起我自己的心!
话是不会改的,从心里边流泪边写出来的真实感情,不是作诗,不要美感,只要把我真实的感情告诉他就可以了,希望能够给我一个不是自动翻译的回答,谢谢大家啦!

When why we not at together time,can feel really thinks of opposite party very much,cares about opposite party very much,needs opposite party,is loving opposite party.But at together time,actually only feels is very tired,is injured very much,the very repugnant opposite party,very wants to leave opposite party.You knew that when with you at together time,I had many words to say to you,but actually did not dare saying that many matters needed to do together with you,but could not go to do.Very wants to hold your hand to walk together,but feared that is cast off by you; Very wants to let you kiss me frequently,but knows you not to be able; Very wants to let you be happy,but actually causes you to be angry,finally are sad.Always thought that probably has any thing to give us separates,we leave very much near,but the heart is very actually far.Knew why sleeps in you I or rest look that you rest?Because only then falls asleep in you I can feel,this is sleeping soundly peaceful also the lovable man is I am loving truly the human,is real,is so close to me.I must instantaneous forever remain this in the mind,never must forget I am loving your real appearance!Although such opportunity are very few,but I had already satisfied,because each time remembers that time,I thought is really very happy,happy wants to burst into tears,wants such happy for a lifetime!Always lets you be tired for me,sorry!This thought that will not have loved again,will not fall in love with you,you actually gives me to fall in love with your opportunity and the reason.Thanked you to let me know anything was the true love,thanked you to give me the happy feeling,thanked you to give the happy love which I this section remembered with eternal gratitude!Does not want any pledge,no longer needs other people,regardless of you whether to need me,I this life only wait for you!This only then does right by my heart!