急What is the meaning of life?I am sitting alone in a corner

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What is the meaning of life?I am sitting alone in a corner in an unremarkable little house in the dark to 1.my brains for an answer.I am 2..I have just 3.my job and my husband has recently left me.I am 35 years old.
It is 4.that the meaning of life is to do what you are told 5.you are about 25 years old and then to marry who you are told to marry.If you are 6.,there is a brief period of being in love before 7.your relatives or your husband tells you that it is your 8.to get pregnant and have children.You may have had a(n) 9.career with a good salary,but that is about to end.Your children will 10.constant attention and you will be 11.a housewife.You will recognize that your youth has passed and begin to grow old.12.,your husband will leave you for someone younger.My services as a wife are 13.required.The whole question 14.me for a moment.How did I get to this point?I am not 15.that I can say that I have ever made a major 16.on my own.I start to get depressed,but then I am 17.by something quite curious:freedom.There is no one 18 me what to do.I am no longer 19.by the wisdom of my parents.I realize that my ambition had been to have a(n) 20.and freedom,and freedom,not a husband and a stay-at-home lifestyle.The infinite possibilities excite me.
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