When I feel when time is best,maybe get married and have a f

When I feel when time is best,maybe get married and have a family,but I know that might not happen...who knows,guys in my country don't like women who think for themselves and are independent...don't know why,but I guess that is how the world works...but in any case if that is if it never happens,then I will adopt a child instead.I know that there are over a million babies that are born and that the parents don't want to take the responsibility.Hopefully I will have a good career in the future...I was thinking to leave my country,for somehow I don't feel conected to my country,It may sound strange to people,but it seems that my soul is not American,I don't know why,but how is it that it is so hard to learn English when I was born in a coutry that speeks English,but yet Chinese,or even Japanese,is so easy to learn,I only need to hear it once and I already know it like it is part of my body...weird...somehow I feel more conected to Asia than to America...I don't know why,but that is how I feel deep in my soul.When I am in school and tourists from China and other parts from Asia come to Kingman,Arizona (my school),I just start talking to them in their language and the students from my school think I am weird and wonder how I know the language when I never took classes in my life...weird they call me,but I guess that is how I am,people in my school think I am so weird that they don't want me to even look at them,I only have two friends,and you the most,somehow I feel kind of lonely,like why am I in this world...well I guess there is no reason for crying over spilt milk,I guess I have to clean it up and pour myself an new glass.^^ (It is a metaphor; a metaphor is when you decribe some object and use it to decribe a feeling,or a compond sentence ) ^^

当我觉得时间适合的时候我就会选择结婚并组织家庭,也许这一切并不会发生吧,谁知道呢.我们国家的男孩都不是太喜欢那些又独立又自私的女孩,我也不知道为什么,也许是世界普遍的规律吧.如果如果我真不没结上婚,也许到时候我领养一个小孩吧.世界上有成千上万的孩子被那些不想负责的父母遗弃.真希望以后我自己能有个良好的未来.我考虑过要离开我的祖国,不知怎么搞的我觉得自己不是美国人,可能别人听起来会觉得很怪,但是也许我的心不是属于美国的,为什么我生在一个讲英语的国度,英语真的好难学,但是中文、甚至是日语,真是学起来太简单了,我只需要听一次就学会了,就象是与生俱来似的,真是太奇怪了.有时候我甚至觉得自己是亚洲人而不是美国人,不知道为什么,但是我心里真的是这么觉得的.我从中国以及亚洲其他地区旅游回到学校的时候,我和校内其他同学说起他们家乡话的时候,他们觉得我真是奇怪极了,非常想知道我没上过语言班又是如何学会说他们国家语言的.他们觉得我是是个怪人,但是我想也许这才是真实的我,学校里面的人都认为我和怪,很多时候我看他们一眼他们都觉得不自在.我只有两个朋友,你就不用说了,是我最好的那个.不知道为什么,我觉得很孤独,有时候觉得自己为什么会来到这个世界.也许有句话叫做覆水难收吧,也许能够做的就是重新修整心情继续努力吧.（刚才这句话是个比喻,比喻就是你在修饰某样东西的时候采用复合句式或谚语来表达自己的感情.）
好长的信,不用谢我了,我在努力提高自己英译中的技巧呢,就当练笔吧.我相信除了机翻的不会再有人去翻译的了.